Dreamer’s Journals

Hate…

it is so easy to fall into hatred..every time I feel weak, sad, afraid, uncertain, and helpless..I choose to deny those feelings..feeling to proud to be sad, to proud to be weak, to proud to be afraid and choose to hate those feelings..but in the same time, I didn’t realize, that those hatred is also directed to me..unconsciously it turned out that, the hate that I thought make me stronger was redirected to myself..and it consumes me like hell fire..self denial..a wise man once tell me to make peace with myself..and the only way to reach the peace is to maintain a strict discipline..he is right of course..but until now..believing it is the best that I can reach..while live with it, is totally a different thing..