Hisashi buri dana.. my blog
wow..its been a very very very long time since the last time I wrote anything to this blogs..its also been long since the last time I visit anyone’s blogs..so why do I suddenly decided to write again??I don’t know..there are no particular reason I just do..as a starter perhaps I’ll write what I’ve been doing today..i wake up at 11..very late, don’t know why its been a habit since this semi-long holy day..some part of it due to my habit of sleeping late at dawn (4:00 am)..then i call my girlfriend using my new bought esia because she didn’t reply my sms for almost 2 days..apparently she is run out of pulsa (well i don’t know what is pulsa in english)..then we had a short chat and zap..the phone is just off..i now guess she really does runs out of pulsa, because recieving a call also require pulsa there(she is in america)..then i was having my lunch (no breakfast)..call ondre to go celebrity fitness..playing emperor while waiting for 4:00 pm (we decided to meet at 4:pm at puri)..after practice at the gym, we went to rachels one night "stay" (not "stand") apartment at aston rasuna (kuningan) to have our diner..meet other friends (there is erick wong and shiely tillie and 2 other rachels friends which i don’t know)..then we go home..now i just finish my bath, and typing at my new buy laptop (not older then one month)..
What exactly i want to write down, i don’t know.. i just let my mind think of anything, then let my fingers follows..well, if you ever watch the sixth sense (by bruce willis and that little famous kid whose name i forgot) there is writing method called free association writing..its simple, u just take a paper, and a pen..and start writing anything that popped up in your head..mind actually is an incredibly creative one..it can think of anything, or everything.. it just came out randomly..have u ever try to stop thinking??try it sometimes, you’ll realize how hard can it be..poeple think not to think is just simply not to think..but we never know if we never try..I’ve try it sometimes..to meditate..keep your mind still..but never really succeed..everything just keep appearing, thoughts that u didn’t even realize u are thinking..some says, being able to set the stillness of mind is being able to release yourself from your ego..but others says that the state of no mind is actually let your mind free (also free from ego), and being a mirror..it grasp a things, but not hold on to it (like reflection from the mirror), you let the mind just flowing freely, not influenced by your logical or systematic thinking..Zen and Taoist practitioner, meditate to achieve enlightenment..Buddhist, especially monks, hold the concept of everyday life is a meditation..while the Moslem’s, use the method of 5 times "sholat" a day to achieve this meditative state of life..as for Christians..i don’t really able to connect these meditation concept with Christians teaching until this day..
So, why does being able to empty your mind is so important..or is it really important..the correct answer.. i don’t know..as a martial artist, according to bruce lee the concept of being empty is being purposeless..its a very important state of mind that every martialist struggle to achieve during a combat by drowning them self to intense martial arts training, and by meditating (of course not all martialist meditate)..the goal is to be empty, to be able to react naturally to every kinds of situation during combat..no matter what kind of attack used by the enemy become unimportant, because u are empty..u didn’t expect anything to come..u just react, at that moment, u are being yourself..u become one with the enemy. But the truth is, u are being empty, there is no perception, there is no enemy, just an attack coming, and u react by blocking, an opening appear, and u hit it..u are being one with the nature..that is the way of a true martialist..i learn this concept from the late infamous bruce lee, from his book, edited by john little (a bruce lee specialist), "Bruce Lee, The Artist Of Life"..but other similar idea is also taught by musashi, the japan greatest swordsman from his book, "The book of five ring"..it stated that, to cut with your sword cannot be different from swinging a pole..and to walk during combat, or to a combat, cannot be different from walking to an amusement park..no tension at all during combat..but the different of the teaching is that, musashi always stressed that in every combat u are, your intention has to be only one, which is to strike down your enemy..every strike must be a killing blow..same principle must be upheld even during practice, because if u don’t, then its not a combat, its a childs play..its a rather different statement with bruce lee’s teaching of being purposeless..which one is the most true teaching..again, i don’t know..my mind is filled with this much concept and idea, but being able to assimilate it, and synthesize a new idea is still way to hard for me..a lot of practice, self introspection, and life experience needed..perhaps those teachings are different..but somehow, i feel that its not..its the same..i don’t know how to formulate it..but i just feel that they are (some spiritualist will say, "the spirits tells me")..in the book of five rings there is a special chapter called "the book of void", and in bruce lee’s, there is "Wu Shin" (No Mind), and "Wu Wei" (No action)..to bad, my study of these two books aren’t yet finished..perhaps I’ll get a better understanding of them after more and more reading..and of course by practicing..
and that was just me explaining the meaning of no mind from the martialist perspective..but how does it applies at daily life??what is the ultimate goal??being able to free self during combat perhaps logically connected to being able to free yourself from your ego during daily life..but can the concept of being yourself can be applied in the same way..in daily life, we tend to not being ourself..some people are so needy of social attention until their action during are not anymore original from their true self..they try to act in a way to show people that this is they really are, but perhaps the actually don’t..attention is what they seek, their goal in relation with others become blurred (this kind of personality called Histrionic in psychiatry)..on the other hand, some people being so confident that they are being them self..they do what they want and stand for what they think is right..until their action considered selfish by the others..and cause a disharmonious to their relationship with others which is not concordant to the concept of being one with the nature..some people’s relationship is based on what advantage can they get..so advantages is their main purpose..they try to put them self in a good position in a society..how??by keeping the goods and ditching the others..this whole way of act during daily life will lead to the next question..what is your purpose of life??because the way you act suppose to be concordant with your purpose of living..if u are not being your self then you are not yet know the purpose of your life..now you can try to ask yourself this question, "am I being myself"? and the next is, "what is my purpose of life"?
So what is my answer???hehehe…
now that is a very long long long entry for a "long time no see" post..I’ve told u, mind can be incredibly creative..the topics above are things that i always love to discuss..with who??mostly with myself (i am a schizoid after all)..well, of course sometimes i discuss it with my fellow martialist, which is my closest friends..but not every little thing..mostly only the one related to martial arts
The next question is..do i hope any people will read this entry??i certainly not..not all wants to spend their time reading a very long long post..so for those who actually read and understands it, you are always welcome to read more and to discuss about it..but for those who doesn’t..u can just think of me talking to myself, then write it down in a post..as the matter of fact, i did stated before that there is no particular reason why i write this blog..it is actually can be considered a result of me talking to myself (well not literally talking)..
November 4th, 2007 at 5:43 pm
Hey, I’ve just read the whole thing of this entry of yours today. The last time I read it I only read the first part and then I didn’t finish it (heheh). Today, I read the whole thing. Coincidentally, why are we so alike? Yesterday I just blogged again and it’s a super long entry, and, I was discussing in my entry about the state of mind when you’re freeing yourself, but I talked about it from a different perspective from yours. Yes, I agree with you that that state of mind frees ego; although I don’t know whether achieving that state of mind is easy or hard in a martialist’s situation, it’s actually pretty easy to achieve it in our daily life. Yes, the reason why people put us outside to interact with other people that we know or never know affects our behaviours. It’s very, very hard to control and maintain that state of mind if you are constantly exposed within these surroundings that, in many degrees, can actually make you do something you don’t really intend to do, which is when you have lost your mind, and therefore not being yourself. It’s pretty hard… But one day if we finally learned how to embrace the forces of nature and enlighten ourselves with them, it will be the highest point to reach for of that state of mind, when we belong to the world and when we become truly ourselves. Never stop practicing!
November 8th, 2007 at 9:01 am
this is one a heck long blog!!! hahaha I’m impressed..wow!
speaking of Christian’s meditation, I don’t know that clear. however, I tell you what I consider meditate; we are not actually clearing our mind, instead we praying to God which can be in words or tongue. We can have further discussion when I’m back to JKT hehehe It’s kinda too long to discuss it in blog hahaha
And for the purpose of life, I asked this question to myself almost every day of my life! I come up with a solution to answer that question for myself, I think what my passion is and usually it gets along to my purpose of my life. I’m not planning to tell the world my passion in blog..hahaha but we will have discussion between your “great mind” and my “great thought” later when I’m back to JKT hehehehe OK bro??
November 25th, 2007 at 8:17 pm
waw, cape ron bacanya hehehehe…gua baru buka FS lu and blog lu…dan gua juga gak mau terlalu pake bahasa inggris, soale gak bisa hehehehe…
ampun bos…wakakakaka
ummmmm….talk about purpose of ur life mungkin kita harus samain konsep dulu hidup seperti apa yang kita mau nantinya?? hidup bagaimana??? dan apa yang kita lakukan untuk menggapinya??
kayanya evan pernah naya gua juga deh, what is my big passion???
well, the truth is i still dont know what is it…i dun know why im being alive in this world as a human…why in this century, not a long time ago…why in jakarta, not in other countries in the world??…and many other why,why, why, which is gak bisa gua tulis semua (rahasia bo!!hehehehe…
kemaren gua nonton EMA (European Music Awards)MTV…ada artis yang bilang gini: “dont hate the games, hate the players…it isn’t important where you came from, but where are you know”…itu sedikit inspire gua, masalahnya kita ini sekarang mau kemana seh dalam idup ini?? jelas kalo mau jujur pastilah kita mau sukses, hebat, coll, and bla bla bla berbagai pandangan idealis dan ambisi kita lainnya yang turut mempengaruhi pikiran liar kita….tapi kalo mau lebih dalam lagi kita menyelami hidup makanya pastilah ujung dari segalanya adalah “die”…tul gak??
serem ya? hehehehe….tapi itulah hasilnya…tapi buat banyak orang bilang kalo idup cuma sekali, jadi harus dinikmatin senikmat-nikmatnya…well, gak sepenuhnya salah seh…tapi coba pikir deh, dari milyaran, puluhan, ratusan, bahkan mungkin trilyunan orang dari jaman baheula dulu ampe sekarang, berapa banyak seh yang kita inget??? pasti gak ada 10% nya…yakin deh ama gua(biar gak banyak perdebatan hehehehe…
apa artinya tuh??
artinya bahwa idup itu pada intinya akan berakhir…jadi sehebat, populer, tajir, and lain-lainnya itu pada akhirnya akan ilang juga…
jadi apa yang harus kita lakuin???
well,according artis EMA tadi, yang penting tuh ‘where are we know’…
nah kemabali ke tempat tujuan (bukan laptop loh)….
gua berasumsi kita semua percaya Tuhan dan Surga kan???
nah tentu kita semua kalo ditanya pasti akan jawab bahwa kita mau masuk Surga kan??(kecuali kalo neraka uda pake AC kali ya hehehehehe)
eh uda kepanjangan neh
kita cut dulu ya hahahahaha
November 25th, 2007 at 9:38 pm
lanjut….
nah, kita semua mau masuk surga kan??
kalo gitu bagaimana syaratnya supaya kita masuk surga seh??? jelas akan ada banyak jawaban buat hal ini..tapi yang pasti semua tentu sependapat kalo masuk enggaknya kita di surga tergantung bagaimana sikap kita selama di bumi, tul kan???
nah kalo gitu semua kan menjadi jelas bahwa…tujuan utama kita di bumi ato bahasa sundanya:’purpose of our life’ (hehehehe) should support our life in eternity in heaven later, right?
nah ini yang harusnya bikin kita untuk merenung…ada yang bilang surga itu bukanlah suatu tempat nun jauh disana yang akan kita dapetin nanti pas kita ‘koit’…tettapi suatu situasi yang penuh dengan sukacita dan damai sejahtera itu pun sudah bisa disebut surga (dalam artian yang berbeda)…nah inilah yang mau gua share…bahwa kita bisa bikin neh surga buatan di our lovely earth ini…inilah yang pada akhirnya selalu dicari orang-orang di dunia ini, dunia yang damai…dan banyk filsuf2, pecinta2 kebijaksanaan, ahli2 bela diri dll juga ikut mencari kedamaian ini…dan pada dasarnya mereka punya metode dan cara berbeda2 satu sama lain(itu yang buat lu pusing ron,antara bruce dan musashi hehehe)…mereka kan merenung dengan cara yang berbeda, dan sebenarnya gak penting juga seh bagaimana cara mereka merenung…yang penting tujuan utama mereka…mencoba merasakan dan menghadirkan surga dalam kehidupan fana ini(walo maknanya beragam: bersatu dengan alam, mengosongkan pikiran, meditasi dll)…nah kalo kita uda bisa ngertiin kaya gini, berarti jalannya akan gampang…karena berarti seluruh hidup kita akan terarah pada satu titik ini -> menuju ‘Surga’ ini, ’surga’ buatan seperti yang mau gua share…kita bukanlah 1 makhluk tunggal berdiri sendiri tanpa ada bantuan dari siapapun (kalo kita seperti itu, betapa naasnya kita hidup iya kan?)…akan selalu ada 1 Bapa yang jaga kita terus, gak peduli kita sadar ato gak, pecaya ato gak…nah kalo uda ada yang selalu jaga kita, buat apa kita bingung lagi??…ini yang bikin gua jadi ngerasa bahwa segalanya akan selalu baik kalau bersama-NYa…lu tau my tragic love story kan ron hehehehe…kalo gak ada Dia pasti gua kaqkn ancur…tapi sekarang gua lagi nyba ngembaliin gambar diri gua yang rusak ini…be stronger than be4…nah
kalo uda gitu purpose gua pastinya juga harus berkembang kan?? and for now on(i hope it will be 4ever)…bukan lagi mencari sesuatu yang bla bla bla seperti kebanyakan orang…gua lakuin yang gua suka, gua mau, terus gua konversiin kepada apa yang Dia mau…im still trying till now…but i know His kingdom allready come like “our Father pray” said…tul gak??
jadi i dont know about my future, about my life 2morrow…i just giv all to God…i just do the best…and let God the rest…percaya deh, kalo semua orang bisa ngelakuin ini, yang terjadi adalah kepasrahan total, gak ada kekecewaan, penyesalan dll…kita cuma hidup mengalir…penuh kesadaran bahwa kita sedang tenggelam…dalam suatu lautan kasih…seorang Bapa…GBU
November 26th, 2007 at 7:03 pm
buset nol….lu komen panjang abis. tapi gw setuju ama lu nol! hahahaha
November 28th, 2007 at 2:21 am
ron,
koment di blog gua juga dong hehehehehe….